Life's .....a constant change

It has been nearly two months now since the "tree" been uprooted from my heart..and various reclamation attempts been made to avoid/prevent further erosion but i guess, not much of a success. ...."curled up like a snail with eyes of that of a turtle while laying eggs". From forgiving to hatred and acceptance to total perplexity...all are sooooo confusing,Yet I truly feel BETRAYAL in my sub-conscious mind! I fought a meaningless battle and defending a "plant" that i shouldn't have and ended up being hurtful (and hurting the ppl around me) and the biggest idiot myself.Dear "enemies", I know....my stupidity has caused me to become the laughing-stock of others. So, come on...laugh at my defeat!!..coz I have lost in a way.

I know things are inevitable sometimes BUT I just HATE the feeling of having to "start all over again" and being in a state of solitude. I HATE to run though i have kinda given that impression lately...running from one place to another...with the aim of deceiving myself that "im still ok".

I can relate to some of the lyrics in some songs that i purposely chose to listen to lately...and "CONSTANT CHANGE" by Jose Mari Chan is one of them. I fell in love with his songs many many years ago after my bro introduced those soothing songs to me.

"CONSTANT CHANGE"

We're on the road, We move from place to place, and oftentimes when i'm about to call it home, We'd have to move along, Life is a constant change....

The friends we know we meet along the way, too soon the times we share form part of yesterday, Cause life's a constant change And nothing stays the same, oh no.

Clouds that move across the skies are changing form before our very eyes.

Why couldn't we keep time from movin on? Hold on to all the years before this moment's gone? Why must we live the days at such a frightening pace?

Have we outgrown our Peter Pans and wings? We've simply grown too old for tales of knights and kings, 'cause life's a constant change and nothing stays the same, oh no.

We're all like clouds that move across the skies, and changing form before our very eyes.

(Words and Music: Jose Mari Chan)

Thank You, Lord coz u have not forsaken me......I need You...I truly need u JESUS!! This I recall to my mind, therefore I have HOPE -Lamentations 3:21